I went to an Addiction Recovery Program meeting this evening. I cannot remember the last time I attended one. Its been quite awhile. I have been very reflective this weekend. Yesterday was the anniversary of my flight home from rehab. While being in the reflective state, along with a fantastic conversation in Relief Society (about choices and agency for which the conversation then flowed on into addictions, how they in turn can distort and destroy out ability to choose...See lesson here.) I followed the prompting to attend ARP.
There were all new faces. Those for whom I did not know their story, the same way they did not know mine. What I am continually struck with every time I attend, is that no matter the circumstance, no matter how broken we are or might feel, no matter how far off the path we have wandered, no matter where on (or off course) in our journey we may be..........Heavenly Father ALWAYS blesses his spirit to be there and attend those meetings with us. We can feel as though we are not beyond the realm of God's redeeming and merciful reach, that the Atonement can still to apply to us no matter how often the adversary tells us otherwise.
Its been during this last week, for circumstances which are beyond my control, that I've come across a major boulder in my path. As much as I've felt as though I want to throw my hands up in the air and proclaim defeat, (because there seem to be endless boulders I come across) I will take baby steps to follow the promptings I've been given. If it is only to show obedience to Heavenly Father, I hope that will count as enough.
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